I had a wonderful day yesterday. I’m beginning to appreciate the slower pace at which I move through the day, finally. I can take time to think about whatever and not the next thing to do. What freedom.
Yesterday I had a couple things to do in the morning and it was my second try at taking the narcotic pain pills just at night and OTC painkillers through out the day. I drove for the first time in many days (okay, a month) and I was amazed at how different my perspective was driving down the street.
I found myself just looking around in wonder at the buildings, other cars and noticing the feel of the car moving. All things I would never notice at the pace I would move before. It was as if I was experiencing the act of driving the first time without all the anxiety of my youth. I was relaxed in a different way. I simply observed without making any assessment of myself, what I was doing, of others or what they were doing. A very peaceful experience, and driving no less!!
Maybe this is one of the ‘gifts’ I received with the cancer. Not an obvious one, but a potentially very powerful one.
