Yesterday I realized I still had a lot of anger, sadness and frustration around my brother’s death over 20 years ago. It was a surprise, but not unexpected. We were supposed to ride among the changing leaves in New England the year he passed. Guess I never really forgave him.

I’ve known he has been with me at various points since his death. How do I know this? Heck if I know, but I think there are many people who have had similar experiences.

What does that have to do with the recent cancer experience? Not sure. Maybe it’s about moving on and being happier?