Today I woke up for breakfast, but ended up going back to bed for most of the day. Very tired. Ate lunch at 3p in afternoon, but I’m hoping it is the beginning of recovery from this cold.
Going to take the dog for a short walk to get out side, but wanted to feel the realization that I’m going in for surgery next week for cancer. Seems like a dream and yet it’s not. I have the same questions I had years ago about the MS: Why me? Why now? What am I supposed to learn from this? How will I move forward?
The big difference is that I have all of you cheering for me and I know I’ve been able to manage through situations like this before. I also have learned that being open and frank about my concerns/worries/fears/hopes/dreams (need to add that one) is very empowering. Years ago I would have thought the opposite. Keep it in, don’t share with others, they’ll just laugh at you, they’ll think you’re weak or incompetent….I’m sure there are many others I just don’t remember.
Today I do know I’m stronger than I sometimes think I am and I have lots to offer. Now I get to see what new direction
