Feeling pretty quiet this morning. I went to my oncologist yesterday for my first post op visit. There was nothing new, but talked through follow up visits, yes, hot flashes, potential re-occurrence (minimal) and when I can get back on my bike again. I looks like I can get on the bike trainer in 2 weeks, so that will at least help me to feel like I’m making real progress. Walks are good, but sometimes it’s nice to have a more vigorous workout to get ‘the cobwebs cleaned out’. I definitely have cobwebs to clean.
This feeling of ‘blah’ is hanging over me right now and I’m not sure where it’s coming from…Is it the visit with the Dr. that confirms all is on the mend and this ‘journey’ is passing (can’t imagine why that would be), is it the final stages of selling our company (in 30 minutes I will be signing the last papers) or maybe it’s the fact that I have to get cleaned up and out of the house instead of just being here in my PJs all morning.
Much as I would love it to be the PJs, I think it may actually be the finality of selling the company. Twelve+ years of literally sweating blood, sweating sweat and countless tears is coming to a welcome end, but nostalgia of the huge peaks and valleys. I’m struggling with that part.
Is this another journey about to begin? I think I would like to finish this one with cancer before I start another one. Like to get past the next year.
But it is something to look forward to…
