Well I just got back from my morning gratitude walk and surprise, surprise, I felt great about everything. I know I will beat this. It’s a feeling I have deep inside, not sure I can really explain, other than it’s my true inner self that comes to me in challenging times. After 50+ years, I can say I’ve had a few.
Last night we had lots of rain and the roads and sidewalks were pretty wet, but the air was clear. I felt like raising my hands to the sky to say “I’m so powerful. I will take this on and be better for it!” While it was still pretty dark and lots of shadows, I felt like I was walking among friends.
Today I need to schedule my hysterectomy and later I will call my parents. Not a conversation I want to have. It will be challenging for all of us, but I know in my deep self that I will be alright.
How do you tell those important to you about something like this? “Hi Mom, just wanted to tell you I went to see my brand new oncologist yesterday because I likely have uterine cancer.” Guess there will be several of these conversations now.
