Well since I last filed you in, I’ve notified my parents and brother and sister. They were quietly surprised. It was nice on my end to not have to deal with lots of emotion. I’m trying to stay positive and move on to the future I want that’s cancer free and lots of emotion from those who love you, does not help in maintaining the mindset. It’s almost like you have to help them. ARGH!
Later I received a couple nice emails from them letting me know they’re there if I need them. My father wrote the best one. He will be having surgery a week before me , so we’ll be on the recover road together. Never though about having someone running parallel with you on the recovery side, but I can see distinct benefits. This will also be a good time to reconnect. Imagine that, bonding over surgery and recovery, HA!!
All my family is some distance away from me so I called everyone. Traveling would have been silly, but I wondered if telling them in person would be easier or harder. Hugs are always nice, but I can see it being more difficult if the person is right in front of you.
Yesterday I spoke to some close friends after we saw a movie. I was pretty nervous, although not sure why. Maybe it was because this was the first time I spoke about the possibility of cancer to someone in person. Maybe they would think less of me? Really, you have these thoughts, but I know I would never think that of someone who shared with me what I shared with my friends. And they are friends.
Isn’t it silly how our mind creates possibilities for us that would likely not occur in others minds?
