Why am I feeling so afraid of something? Nothing? Anything?
I have so much to be grateful for, not the least of which is being cancer free. But I still have a feeling of trepidation. Is it because I had two activities cancel yesterday that I was looking forward to? Is it because it’s been raining so much and I haven’t seen the sun? My copping mechanism is at the bike shop?
My guilt feelings combine with the disappointment I feel. Am I in a box? Am I? How can I get out? My thoughts are the only thing I can control, so how best to move forward?
So many questions. Why? Why? Why?
Okay, time for a walk. At least it’s not raining again.
