Precipice of Change?
Do you ever feel like there are a lot of things in your life that are just about to change?
I just had a great time with my cousins who I haven’t seen in a while. In fact, I remember him as a young child vs the Ph.D. he is today. Lately, I’ve been thinking about how many different things around me that are just about to make a shift.
Visiting with my cousin helped me begin to think about how much has changed since our last visit. My parents are older, our dog has aged much more in the last several weeks and the company we have started has generated a decent amount of interest.
There have been other times in my life when it seemed like a lot of things were about to change and I remember feelings of ambivalence that preceded some of the shifts that were about to take place. While I don’t remember the actual changes, I remember the feelings. They are very familiar to me today as I write this post.
It feels the same, but there is a marked difference for me now. I do not have waves of fear that things won’t work out or something bad will happen and I need to prepare for it. Instead, it’s about curiosity and a sense of wonderment about what might happen.
I’ve spent a fair amount of time answering the question, ‘what do I want?’ for myself and I’m curious, somewhat anxious, and very interested in what will evolve in the future.
It feels like I’m relaxed and sitting in a convertible driving down a long highway and enjoying the scenery. Today I trust myself and I’m looking forward (instead of fearing) to what happens next.